2008-02-28 - 10:31 p.m.
I am REALLY REALLY TIRED.
But after spending 5 minutes to clean up my e-mail, I have to vent about this one silly thing. Isn't this just WRONG?:
ANd thought of how to rub it in to those who don't have the discretionary
Who would have thought that TAUNTING PEOPLE would result in them PAYING YOU FOR A SERVICE???
OH WAIT... LAWYERS! Isn't that what they do often?? And Bill Collectors.... but Marketing folks?
I am adverse to those pushy types who try to make you feel GUILTY to manipulate one into a desired action.
The thing I have to be careful is to not so stubbornly then REFUSE to act as I would have otherwise, BUT FOR the pushy person trying to induce guilt as a motivator. I tend to then just NOT RESPOND to such people at all.
So I have blown off my Mary Kay Director lately. She is a bundle of enthusiasm, but also a successful career salesperson as she is pushy as hell.
However I then thought about how a therapist is $90 and hour. Some people pay that weekly to keep themselves centered, and some just invest in themselves in ANOTHER way so they don't need a therapist-- like MARY KAY.
So I thought, IT IS WORTH It if the experience is validating and positive and gives an opportunity to connect with other women in a supportive community where we celebrate our personal accomplishments, work on setting and attaining goal, work on balancing life with a job and family, and countless other ways that this can benefit me.
I was going to write alot more regarding the above, and about how I gave last rights when we thought he was dying (And anyone can do so although it is typically a priest.) That is a whole long entry I may or may not ever write.
But I am instead going to bed.
But first will write of one other wonderful thing along the lines of the thought "There is no such thing as coincidence":
I FIRMLY BELIEVE THAT WE GET WHAT WE ASK FOR IN LIFE. WE ALSO GET WHAT WE WISH FOR.
It's an amazing thing how that works. Lately I have been so very blessed with some marvelous things I have asked for coming to fruition.
YOu see, I am not one who wishes for something, or asks for something often.
I have been blessed to have found work as I asked for. That week of Christmas when I decided not to travel and believed I would land a job that week was incredible as I did land a job that paid $800 for that week- the EXACT amount I needed for Jan rent.
I have found other jobs to sustain my family and I .
But what is more moving to me, and more miraculous is when a desire for something so offbeat and quirky comes my way.
At Christmas time, I was brainstorming for a gift I could give my boyfriend that he would appreciate and not have already! I hit upon the idea of Martini glasses (if he didn't have them) and the ingredients to make a holiday martini. He doesn't drink mixed drinks or liquor often, so I thought it would be a nice surprise treat. I in fact have only had a few martinis in my life, so I thought it would be fun to explore that with him.
I did a search for Martini recipes. BOY WAS THAT EYE OPENING... THEY SHOULD GIVE WARNINGS BEFORE A MARTINI LIST THAT THOSE RECIPES ARE NOT FOR CHILDREN AND CONTAIN EXPLICIT LANGUAGE and IMAGERY.
At Christmas I decided against the idea as I couldn't stop a the gas station to eat pizza.... OK THAT LAST LINE IS EVIDENCE OF A NARCOLEPTIC TRAIT OF BEING ABLE TO KEEP TYPING WHILE I DOZE OFF INTO A DREAM STATE .... Its interesting to me how I can do that: start a sentence awake, then doze and write of the dream. Glad I awoke before the gas station dream got nonsensical. STOPPING AT A GAS STATION FOR PIZZA?? THAT SOUNDS LIKE I WAS HAVING A NIGHTMARE!
But I had the thought "This is a great idea! I will follow through with this when I land a full time job and can afford to do so. It will be in celebration!"
Well, I just couldn't believe it when , of ALL THINGS that I was fortunate to take home in my "groceries" from INTERFAITH RELIEF this week- there was a large bottle of MIXER to make Peppermint Martini's!
ISn't that just a Hoot?? I found it hilarious and the highlight of the week! Forget making and drinking a Martini! This is infinitely more inspiring, uplifting and humorous! I think I want to keep that mixer bottle for a while as I will Laugh in Delight every time I see it!
How's that as a testament that we get what we wish for-- EVEN DOWN TO THE SEEMINGLY INCONSEQUNTIAL SMALL THINGS WE ASK FOR IN LIFE.