2021-08-17 - 10:22 p.m.
Today was a trying and tiring day.
I felt so defeated!
I started off REALLY strong this morning.
Let me backtrack to yesterday....
I worked this weekend. So it was super busy between going to exercise class to start off the weekend Saturday morning; then a wonderful run which felt fabulous ( I Felt GOOD!!), a nice text with my friend Dr. Fauci who I think will be my running partner for the MCM 10K this year...
I awoke happy and energetic and ready to start my week.
NOW it was the first week that the weather has NOT been in the 90s and near 100 degrees in WEEKS.
So, on Monday morning I could re-claim my office space! (Which is in the basement and the cool haven away from the rest of the hot humid house. I have been working upstairs and when not too hot on my porch). The kids of mine ( young adults) have been hunkering down in the basement and had brought sleeping bags down there. With a house full of folks with POTS it is not a surprise, and not unusual, and no NOT a result of any "bad" indulgent parenting to have folks asleep at all hours of the day ( at least SOMEONE).
So I went down to work and had to go back up and bring down my NEW Dyson vacuum and first put away sleeping bags and pillows and straighten my office ( AS THE MESS DRIVES ME CRAZY... and you know its my comfort to straighten it. Kids don't care and they will be happy to leave the sleeping stuff out and have it ready to use when/if gets hot again. It honestly is easier for me to take the time to tuck them away then complain or nag or ask them to do so, In fact that morn they all were asleep in beds in actual bedrooms since the heat wave broke!)
But I just HAD to vacuum! Then I HAD to also put away the clean laundry that was folder sitting here on a table. I mean I WANTED The space to look nice and orderly and PEACEFUL for my work week in MY office space.
IT felt so great to be back working in this home office setup! So I started working later in the morning than usual... really late in fact for me.
I am in charge of an order of T Shirts for the church. Seems like a simple thing, right?
NO,,,I could PAY for that... (and of course I don't have the authority or the church deacons account credit card to do that unilaterally) OR can pull the info and organize the data myself.
Which took hours!
So after I finished and placed the order for T-shirts with the supplier and was SURE that each person who wanted something particular would get it. I made it complicated...we have four different shirt options.... but everyone wanted something different and I accommodated. Some white, some blue, some crew , some V neck, some long sleeve, some short.... I mean maybe more than 4 variations? I don't know I just know it was fun to do ... but the math part took too long. I had to figure out who pre-ordered; cost and how much risk work carrying by ordering extra shirts for all those who don't read emails carefully or go on social media and didn't catch the blasts EVERYWHERE to order a shirt if you want one...
SIGH... Ordering name tags next.... that will be simpler. My supplier is sending a prototype and price point soon. I asked a couple weeks ago and he was busy. Post COVID it seems like a nice idea to have name tags, especially as some of us are awful at remembering names.
So basically after spending, now that I think of it actually two hours in the morning ( in addition to the time Sun night of at least another hour and likely more); of working with order numbers, item numbers, pricing and modeling of different order price points and risk to settle on what I wanted to order....
I was just TIRED of working with data.
I mean price quotes and modeling are things I can only do so much of and my brain is freaking tired.
and it was rather slow this Monday morning;
so shifted gears to do the number crunch on refinance options. (GO refinance NOW if you have anything over 10 yrs on your mortgage and get a 15 yr mortgage if you have anything over a 3.5 rate. Seriously. WORTH IT. You can ALWAYS pay off faster than the mortgage! Great time to get a better interest rate on a shorter term and with a lower monthly payment for many in the market.. .. or a longer term but lower monthly payment and can pay off more aggressively if can afford such.)
So I took a break from work to run more numbers....
So fried that when I finally settled in to work for a few hours...I was exhausted and it turned out the ONLY work left on my TO DO that I could work on at the time- was a data analysis project.
OH MY GOD!
Lo and behold... on Friday I pushed out a contract requested ( simply as it was a slow day and I needed to log SOME hours to be paid so any late requests that came in on Friday got DONE Friday afternoon. Its the ethics thing... I was multitasking working on mortage stuff and watched time OFF the clock and still owed some hours to even hit my 4 hrs Friday. So I actually worked late Friday to make up that time when there was ACTUAL Work to do.)
Work has slowed down a bit. It ebbs and flows and it was a slow week last week.
I have some projects to work on... that require ANALYSIS of our DATA and working aggregating and looking at it in EXCEL.
I was spent.
And I did not have ONE legal contract to provide analysis of.
So I did what any reasonable person would do.
I only worked three hours for the actual work and only ledgered three hours on my time sheet. ( Thank God I had one contract review I was not done with that allowed me to get some substantive legal review done, and I could organize emails and save files- file clean up. Without that I would not even have had that much work.)
FIRST I did pull my employment contract thinking "My boss said 20 hrs a week. Now do I get paid 20 hrs even if don't WORK 20 hrs?"
The thing is for many that is actually the case.
I can't in good conscience bill for hours not worked. There are a couple thing to be done... but I will do those the next couple days. I just was not up to them yesterday or today frankly.
I did some work today; again only 2 hrs worth.
This is totally unusual from what the norm has been. Its just a light few weeks! September will be busier. I have some items coming up and know will have more work flow. I will check what modifications are due as know there are things I can get done. I have some compliance work to do; reviewing that we are meeting all regulations. Business development will happen and the capture and project managers will send work my way they need done, so it will pick up. Sure there are things to do otherwise but they require that analytic type of work and I have to be on point to do that. I have to be in the right frame of mind or I am just not efficient at it so best to wait for the energy and for my brain to be ready to handle that. Its an energy thing!
Honestly though it was legit slow the past couple days. I am also awaiting something to be delivered to me before I can more forward on one project.
All in all I really love my job,
It was just really weird to have the anomaly of such slow days!
But that was not even the vent of the things that made today hard!! I think I won't even write about that just now....
Funny I rarely write about work. The things that went wrong today were not really work related...
only ancillarilly... But it was lots of things I had to do that took up my energy and time.. and left me without ability to be very productive at work! ( Volunteer work; financial planning... logistics...) Honestly... a lost day... sorta...
And we are not reporting to an office. I mean if you are hired for 20 hrs a week at a weekly rate with clear hours IN The office well you get paid if you show up EVEN If there is no work! Managing staff is important for companies to not be throwing money away on labor in such situations! BUT if you are hired part time to be paid by the hour for 20 hrs remote,.,and one week there is NOT work to keep you busy those 20 hrs... so you end up on phone with banks...etc.... doing laundry... dishes...walking the dog...
This is all to say I need to get my butt in gear and get my web site up and running. There was an issue with the hosting provider and access to my site which I never resolved.
Basically I started this job part time and happy with only working part time for this company only for a while.
I might be in this frame of mind also as talked to a friend of mine who said is job hunting as there is not much for him to do in his new role in his new job ( he was canned the same time I was from the company that was a sinking ship we worked for previously. They had to let a bunch go to be viable basically. It was obvious....) We were discussing how it is nerve wracking when not busy. I was reminding him that is is OK to be in a place that is HEALTHY And not manic and crazy with non stop urgency and artificial emergencies manufactured to keep everyone productive at all times. But at the same time that I was encouraging him to not be worried it resonated with me when he said he prefers being kept on his toes, being kept busy and keeping his skillls sharp by being challenged. YES I get that. I found it weird to just not have anything to do (but the one task I was too tired for! I will work on that later this week first thing in the morning after being refreshed when my brain is optimal and efficient! But it does make sense since things are slowing down for me to challenge myself by finding my own clients for my own company since not working for a large entity that always has more that I could jump in and work on. Large companies ALWAYS have things that can be done it seems! The ebb and flow of working for a small is very different. I intentionally did want to not start off strong but wanted to gradually shift into working for myself. I take NDAs VERY Seriously, I won't steal business from my old employer.
I WILL HOWEVER call contacts I made during course of business with my old employer and do some rainmaking. THAT is different. It also makes a difference if wait for the time period of an NDA to expire before making those cold calls. That is my intention! To have confidence I do my job REALLY WELL and that the clients supported know and appreciate that and a couple years later they will STILL have confidence in my personal ability. So I am not in a rush . I feel it best to take time to relish this slower work period and appreciate the ability to have my presence and attention at home for my family who DO need me now despite their ages of being older.
DAMN I am tired. Tomorrow is another day.
I mean it was just a busy day but I felt like I did not get MY work done for work!
I answered some emails; reviewed a couple questions... yeah did somethings...
Ce la vie... slow day...
And tomorrow and the next day I will tackle those projects that are still on my to do that require analytics.
It was just too much today...
I did take time to find the info for local refugee resettlement programs as they are in need of volunteers, to post the info on social media. (They always can use them!) I was glad one of my kids said "Hey we should volunteer as there will be Afghani's resettling here."
I am sure I can jump into refugee services volunteer legal work at this time. I will put the feelers out. This is the exact kind of legal work I started off doing years ago. Funny how history repeats itself.
Afghanistan intervention lasted longer than our US intervention in Somalia.
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