2021-11-17 - 6:49 a.m.
Up early and want to go swimming.
So short morning pages today as not alot to dump which is just great!
Life is good...
But I can't find it.
This is the NEW cell phone ordered to replace the old one that was lost
SO up and at it
If I can swim great this AM IF NOT I have to try to REMEMBER to stop work and take a lunch break for a swim. HECK I did that in college often!!
Its just not my routine.. but could easily be.
I love my work schedule as easily can fit in all my work hours ang get things done timely AND carve out time for exercise and family needs and guitar practice, writing.
I am working with a professional coach to get my own business up and running and expect a branding package and web design proposal in my email for consideration any day now after an initial call from a talented web designer/
I also likley should get a quote from the guy our arts org used as he is outstanding.
One of my kids has a partner who works in that space but is busy and I don't want to put it on them if I can find someone that I know is great and if I can afford to hire and just get it done.
That is important as I can then pick up just a select few clients for income- but moreso for earning potential in the future not now. But after the kids here are off to college when I have more time..
I will write then more as well- I have a couple professional articles in mind in my work space.
which is an asset when I have worked on process improvement.
I am great at seeing when compliance turned into paranoid overkill
Documentation and checks and balances are important but in the finanacial mortgage market space for instance ( where I worked a while) there were ridiculous operations inefficiencies frmo overkill of checks and balances. You can have oversight and checks and balances without redundancy and multiple layers of management checking the checkers... then validating the checking of the checkers.. then interanally auding that process... then auditing the auditors...
BUT I DIGRESS
was not going to write..
But did LOL
that was all of 15 min.
as was thinking
WAIT Only two options
Now I have written of my bestie who I really actually trust and don't thikn would ever steal a phone from me
but how the thought was NO ONE WAS HERE when I first lost my phone and then realized she had been here. And was like Well... she was honest in sharing at times had compulsive behavior WHEN A TEEN and I love her but maybe possible she just had the behaior- not willfully??
possibility?? If not feeling well and psycological symptom re-emerged?
but then there were the things my ex said disappeared he thought she took.. so perhaps a well hidden CHOicE? NOT impossible no matter how much I emotionally could love and trust someone
OK whatever--- just be careful with paying attention myself
I don't really care its only a fucking phone and can be replaced was my thought
a small inconvenience
and as long as its only my things that once in a while go missing ( AGAIN WITH THE CAVEAT OF ADHD BEING THE LIKELY CRIMINAL HERE...)
I still am most in belief that the shit I lose is here somewhere wherever I left it last OR Wherever a teen moved it to. Maybe someone needed the stool to get to a high shelf...
So I will clean house, straighten and look for it.
BUT THEN I remembered.. .weird I never found the phone missing ( the first one had it been here) when I cleaned before my lover came over....
Trust but verify...
I just want to go back and read my journaling to see if he is suspect for the 1rst missing phone? He was her one other time recently and need to see if that was before or after then. I first connected with him last April but he has only been here twice ( and both recently.)
Man I so hope the phone shows up.
Trust but verify.
And don't be dumb no matter HOW you FEEL
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