2022-07-19 - 4:05 p.m.
OK no trip to DMV today. The kid was not ready to go. Older sibling said "you can't just expect someone to go do something last minute without a plan"
Oh yeah -
That was spoken by the kid NOT diagnosed who further said " People have to plan a couple days ahead to be ready and prepared."
I said "No not all. Some just go DO things. We have the checklist of documents needed to bring. They are in the safe deposit box and the bank. We could just get dressed to go out, go to the bank and get the document and JUST GO TO THE DMV. It does not have to be complicated and don't have to overthink it. Can just DO IT. That is what I do when I think of things I have to get done."
This older kid of mine said something about how that is the values of capitalism. Went on about conformity... etc...
Whatever they said made little sense practically speaking.
And I said "Yeah well we are in a world run by capitalism, so I best apply for a new job and try to land new clients EVERY DAY WHETHER I FEEL LIKE IT OR NOT IN the moment"
The kid said something about how my other kid doesn't FEEL Like going now. I had said "What does how you FEEL have to do with it?
Oh my God I am trying not to lose patience with these kids.
I swear that is the only way there are steps forward with these kids just now.
This was in my in box.
The other kid then raised the topic of me having sent info on the rehabilitative services office again today. They were complaining I was being obnoxious to email that info to them. I said I did it as the kid just raised the issue and SAID they wanted to find work they COULD DO.
Then the older kid said something about how she did not think that her sibling should consider going to college yet. He said basically that considering the lack of energy and lack of ability to work any job he didn't think that they could handle college either.
The other kid said "I don't really have a choice" As this kid thinks the ONLY Work they could do requires a college degree. I think they think the only work they could do is computer work that PAYS exceptional so they can get paid a high rate per hour and work less hours. TRULY A great plan.
But this kid has to be realistic and learn to work despite the discomfort and lower paying jobs to earn what money can or will never be able to make it through college! I mean the reality is that if go ANYWHERE for college this kid will HAVE TO work to pay for it all. There is no cushion otherwise. There is not likely going to be scholarships to bridge gaps like the older siblings all got. Those are often based on PERSONALITY as well as talent and intelligence. They don't go to the anti-social autistic students!
SO I listened to this in my procrastination as there was not work to do for the one client AND
I DID switch back that piddly few dollars I earn a month from the part time job BACK to the 401K.. for the small amount it is I decided leave it as NET INCOME ZERO and make no mention of it.
EVEN having picked up an extra shift here and there then it goes to 12 hrs one week and 6 the next for a LOW WAGE job.
The small amount would be a shitty reason to not get ANY UNEMPLOYMENT.
Since the law is report NET income I am better off not risking losing ALL unemployment because I make that NET the few hundred dollars.
It sucks as feels like gaming a system. But what it is is that the new freakin system designed to quickly accommodate the many unemployed due to COVID had some serious design flaws.
I realize if the payments ceased due to some hearing and talk with my old employer there would have had to have been a HEARING last time round. I would have had to be on that call for that investigator to inquire! The thing is they were SO short staffed and doing this all remote and they claims were up SO MUCH they rolled out the quick online and on phone truncated streamlined process
and I think I got one check but then when reported the job ( the longstanding tiny income from part time job) WEEK TWO- as I work EVERY OTHER week,
SO I then did not get the $1300 a month I would have gotten. I mean that just sucks. My mortgage this time around is DEPENDANT on that payment these next couple months. UNTIL my college student goes back to school. THEN I can rent the basement again. I can't do that now. I don't have that as a backup til FALL.
I am in survivor mode.
and I never believed people WOULD NOT WORK because they may lose benefits
Cause why would you take a job and work some shitty fast food resteraunt for $7.50 to even $15 per hour to risk then LOSING benefits and BECOMING HOMELESS???
WATCH MAID to get a bit of a sense of this reality.
OK more Seth Perler for teens and young adults with ADHD- this resonates with me! ( It just started playing in the background) GET OUT OF THE FUCKING VICTIM MENTALITY!!
And I leave you with that as I call to file for unemployment then look for the next job to apply for.
My goal is at least one job application in per day.
I learned not to be MORE Aggressive than that when applying for unemployment as you HAVE To apply for two or three a week, And if apply for TOO MANY ( like 10 one week that are decent) then the next week sometimes you have to apply for SHITTY jobs that you wouldn't' really even want to take- to play that fucking game. I HATE playing games. BUT I have done that when there were no viable ACTUAL jobs open that I had not already applied to! (That is what happens if over vigilant in applying!)
In other news-
I mean really-
I typed what I swear was a decent email. I checked it I THOUGHT
Honestly it looks so sloppy.
My clear concise email changed from what I TYPED to nonsense.
One less potential client.
I was rushing as was sending that email while manning the reception desk at about 8AM at work at the retirement community. That is what I get for multitasking on that job!
So here is the epic fail
WFT? I am a decent speller overall. I am a decent touch typist overall ( I think? AM I REALLY THAT BAD?? Maybe? Maybe I don't have a realistic view of my accuracy or lack thereof on a first draft. It is a problem in emails for sure. AND an ADHD trait to have a more positive self perception than one's actual reality!)
I need to look at the spell check config on my new email! Maybe it is reviewing for French too? AND I need to SLOW DOWN
I am going to call THAT my ADHD Moment of the week and hope it is the WORST of this week. And I am going to move on and try again to find the next viable opportunity for work that meets my family's needs.
and onto the process of CALLING the VA unemployment office. I have no choice but to bite the bullet and humble myself to do this for the time being. Sucks though it does.
I am happy I can cook at least. There is always homemade soup , biscuits, and bread.
I see how poor people have shitty diets however as fresh produce is expensive and in certain food deserts in both cities and rural areas it is hard to find but for what is grown right there locally.
The neighbors all talk of how the ongoing battle with the ants is real.
OK enough procrastinating. I just have to get on the phone and sit on hold and hope I get a person to file my unemployment claim.
I hope I can file from the first week I had a drop in income. But they may only let me file from TODAY as today I am calling. Will see.
But my official part time employment ended last Friday. (Thu as I took off Friday weeks before to move my kid!)
I really wanted to earnestly look for work before filing. I hoped would not NEED To.
I honestly hoped would land something.
But at least it was good the recruiter was impressed and thought me a good fit.
It is REALLY hard to job hunt when your confidence is shaken. But doing my best.
YEAH I actually got a direct deposit from part time job! - 2022-07-21
I found a gov role I would like in a city I enjoy!! Will try for any possibility - 2022-07-20
IRS update- they are working to get through the 11.2 million UNPROCESSED CLAIMS! DAMN - 2022-07-20
Realized today how much I enjoy MY TIME in the mornings at home - 2022-07-20
YEAH got a VA Unemployment rep on the phone to help me! - 2022-07-19