2022-12-07 - 1:25 p.m.
No lie I was happy to get an email the one social, business dev Christmas Party I sent an RSVP to that was to happen tonight was cancelled.
Too many folks at the bank sick.
I am tired today.
Back home and ready to finish up the analysis of picking my health insurer and scheduling my medical care today.
I am also happy that I was scheduled for a follow up panel interview for a full time role for NEXT week rather than today! The first interviewer asked my availability today and the rest of this week and early next week.
I am happy it is Mon afternoon. After folks are into the swing of things, not too early in the day on a Mon. Better than Fri afternoon or Mon AM!
Funny how the stats are showing Covid #s low yet I personally am hearing of those catching it. I think it is currently vastly underreported because people use at home tests, stay home til feel better, but I don't think the COVID reporting apps really took off.
I still have COVID WISE APP on my phone but never think of it either. I never look at it. I don't know if it was turned off or is still active and on - would have to check ( if think of it when I have phone in hand. ) I of course misplaced my phone ( this happens ALL THE TIME!)
So I did double duty. The Arts thing was in person and they really needed help EARLY as kids arrived and got checked in and to greet parents and make sure all had taken care of payment and if not help them out.
SO I just got there at 5:30 and then at 7 found a quiet corner (it is actually the costume room of the theater we were at last night !) where I logged in for the professional org meeting. There was a parent meeting going on which I was at for just a short time with the arts org families before leaving to take my call. I didn't have to drive home and be on time for my 7pm meeting. They really needed my help til around 6:30- so It worked out!
We are grateful to have some new awesome volunteers that are enthusiastic and have time to help support that org. It does good work for the disabled kids and adults who engage in their programs.
The fact of the President of the Arts Org clearly being the one who does plain does not like me was very clear. I was bothered when we received a grant that came in thanks to a relationship and the work I did with a community foundation over past years. The community foundation knew of our org and what those foundations do are match donors with organizations needing support. I sent a thank you email and the President sent this rude email back saying I should not have emailed a response. IT was bizarre. WTF??? Why not?? I have been on this board since 2012 in some capacity and over years developed the relationship with that community foundation for our org but you don't want me to email back when the donation email came to My EMAIL AND HERS?? I freaking asked them to ADD HER as Point of contact to keep the President in the loop.
This is the same person who decided not to like me YEARS Ago I overheard cursing about the other board member and adding me to her disdain. It was so fucking childish and bizarre. ( Cause I agreed with the other person and not her opinion?) Fucking years gone by and she is still carrying some disdain and dislike of me. No fucking idea what for really other than supported that other lady. I never will understand however; and this year I have gone out of my way to try to CONNECT with her. And she made effort too. She actually TALKED to me like a human and personably and I really appreciated her efforts this year. She acted FRIENDLY ( a first)
EVERY REGION has some sort of community foundation. The best tip for any non profit is to tap into them and develop a relationship by availing oneself of their offerings of trainings and support services. They are a great place to learn much! AND the more interested your org is in learning from them, the more likely they will understand your non profit mission and then they will think of your non profit if someone with money comes and says they want to support an org doing just what you do!
That is how much private funding happens.
It was really bizarre to me that although the email announcing the donation was addressed to me ( As I was the former Marketing Director and in that role had attended a number of trainings, offerings of that community foundation and worked at that relationship for a few years... the thing is I just did it. I don't think I was great at giving really detailed Marketing Reports. I gave them verbally and gave an overview. I did not share EVERY Detail of work done- just results. I did not WRITE them in a report. I just DO things quietly and I don't always remember to tell someone every step. But the thing is when one is vested with a role and given a job to do I expect trust and confidence and not micromanaging. Its like whenever I did anything the now Pres (who used to be Secretary then Treasurer and heck I APPRECHIATE HER for she takes on those jobs!!), is just one of those people irritated she did not know my every move. It was really not necessary- I mean I had a freaking Committee at one point with something like 8 people actively doing marketing for that org. WE ROCKED It. I had said I was holding a meeting and invited folks to join the committee. They joined; we all collaborated- we got lots of shit done. But there was not another board member there and at some point they were freaked out there was this momentum happening that was NOT ABOUT THEM. OR did not INCLUDE THEM. WTF?? It was almost like after we rocked it the then board was... IDK not paying attention? And then freaked that they acted like they did not know what we were doing.
It got tiring. I mean I love sitting at meetings and hearing them say shit like ( this year this happened a new board member speaking) "We could use Google analytics"
so when they said "Maybe we could use Facebook Marketing" and I was like
(HONESTLY FB has the BEST marketing tools out there. They are CHEAP and get a great return. They are easy to target to the audience you want.)
They never figured out when we had a show and they asked folks to raise hand those years "Who is here for the first time?"
and I realize that there was a problem with that NO DOUBT that I could have done better.
BUT It is just really irritating that years later- I mean get over it! YEARS later ( heck we went through another Marketing Director since me.... who resigned....)
I did not make the connection then.
See we had a board member who they all loved who rocked the role of ARTISTIC DIRECTOR
It was their pride to have a former participant, and autistic artist on the board. UNTIL that creative talented he became a she. I think now They is their preferred pronoun actually... they want to be seen for their talent and not seen for gender but present to the world very feminine. That person was accepted UNTIL They transitioned fully physically as well.
The initial freak out was when I was supporting the event and knocked the marketing out of the park and it was a success!
See they first pushed the person OFF the board saying they wanted to support the persons creative work as an artist and wanted to produce their play. This is a playwriter. Our org put on their first play and they directed it. It was a smashing success. It was GOOD!! SUCH A GREAT SHOW. For a few years the org focused on producing original works by disabled artists. That was the work I thought was amazing and exciting.
But then the reneged on producing the show. The artist had already resigned as Artistic Director ( under the BS RUSE that as a board she should not be on the board and also be in the role of Director of a show produced by the board. SUCH BS. I mean we have paid production staff but there is not any constraint on that. ) I and a couple board members thought when they said "It is just not ready for production"
See the thing is- the person they recruited to be NEW Marketing Director (to be )is a TRUE Theater person. Not just a mom of a disabled person. BIG difference... so she fully understand it is COMMON in theater to have readings of works in development! THOSE are fucking awesome bona fide events in and of themselves! Folks will show up to be present and see a workshopped version of a work in progress!
Now I was clueless at the time the transphobic board members were trying to disassociate working with the trans gal. I did not get it. AT ALL
That was the last event that I marketed before the booted me and had the new person take over. I don't think this new person had any idea she was manipulated and that I had not WANTED To step down but was pushed out. She certainly did not know why. I like her very much ! I worked with her since but just stood down from organizing a team etc... ( She was at the meetings to check us out at the invite of those who were trying to push that trans gal off, and the other person off, and then I got added to their list.. but I saw through their manipulation. I am not going to be pushed around if I am passionate about something. And truth be told I AM PASSIONATE about disabled artists having forums for their work. I was excited by the direction of actual disabled playwriter having their work produced.)
SO back to the present. I guess it is continued discomfort not of my support of others that make that Pres uncomfortable but at my own family, my own support of LGBTQ Community since my family is in that community.
The new folks are like "What is up with the awful inconsistent language of the web site -- I haven't managed the web site in YEARS and we had someone amazing do so but the board in recent years has not done a good job in some respects
* I let go of caring and just do what I do cause I like the PROGRAMS and know they are valuable and I think it is important work
so don't care about the nonsense....
I sit and decided to still be present and show up and volunteer with what they want or need me to do
So I have no hard feelings. I am so over being UPSET by the few who don't care for me as a person.
BUT it was upsetting in the moment at the Board meeting when they sang praises of the new person working on grants ( she just dug in ! She is gathering info to prepare a grant)
I did quietly ask "Oh did she file a grant application? Did another grant come in? The community Foundation one was awesome as that was just awarded as they are aware of who we are! IT was not based on any application but they matched us with a donor. Did we get another as well?"
The response from the President was "No, she filed a grant application for that."
I was utterly confused at first. But realized- NO I am not...
Back when we received the award, I called her on the fact when the award came in she tried to shut down MY Communication with the Community Foundation Executive Director. It made no fucking sense. I mean I and another board member ( and a third who since resigned) had been to a number of meetings together. There were three of us then two of us nurturing that relationship. First two, then one left and then the board recruited someone else for Marketing ( cause they did not like me supporting someone they pushed out who was trying to get them to be more professional and do things CORRECTLY.....They wanted to get rid of both of us. WHY Cause we were trying to give sound advise... but they took it personally!)
SO I got over feeling hurt about it and when she did that bullshit figured just pick up the phone and call to directly address it.
I figured just have it out with her. Find out what the fuck was the problem she has with me.
But stupidly in the moment I BOUGHT IT when she LIED To me and said "Oh no, I just didn't want her to be inundated with a bunch of responses from everyone."
I had said "OH Good, I figured I would call as I took it as personal. I thought it was perhaps something I had done. GOOD! I am glad I called to clarify."
Cause the client I landed sent and email. We had a chat. They are sending an NDA then work!
Until then... will just finish and let go of this nonsense. I am not feeling upset anymore but figure let it go by writing...
Enough about the fact that some bitch can't even be gracious enough to be appreciative of the fact whether she likes me of not I developed a relationship with a community foundation that just sent the org we both have love for money.
I mean sad for her she can't easily overcome her *feelings* about me to work together.
I do kinda feel bad the new board member was befuddled and confused saying how our messaging is all over the place and that I did NOT PUSH for the revamp of mission statement at the annual board meeting. NO
OOPS WE had the one conversation
SO I did feel badly that at our annual board meeting I didn't CONTINUE to push forward for movement on the 2nd thing I asked for on the agenda:
OOPS YEAH I knew it needed revamping and then we should have officially VOTED on a new one
But I was no longer in charge of marketing.
CE La vie
I just kinda feel bad as the person now handling grants said everything is so inconsistent .
I know our web page was up to date a few years back. Then there was a change; we stopped an affiliation with a larger national org and I think that affiliation was not removed from web site.. oops... again I was not in charge and could have reviewed but did not.
NO one reviewed it I guess but the person handling it.
SO this is the problem with this board. In the past when there is any mistake like this people just POINT FINGERS as if it is the person handling the web site's fault.
IT IS NOT
simply as they do a bang up job of program management
BUT they have ONLY VOLUNTEERS for the other functions. I have said for years- a board of this size needs to start hiring some pros.
Its the only answer.
But until then... piece meal.. volunteers will each do what we can. And it will be good enough albeit imperfect.
But hope the challenges don't scare away the new person taking this on now.
Maybe I should not have asked- see she was not at the last board meeting in which the Pres was giving kudos for her great work.
but no she did affirm "no I haven't sent in any grant applications yet"
and I said "OH OK- so the one that came in was just from the existing relationship. That is the thing- everyone thought it was not worth doing the Give Choose Campaign as the foundation gets a cut and we get such a small amount from that; BUT it is not about that- its about maintaining a relationships with that org! That sponsoring org has relationships with donors. So it is worth doing EVEN IF on that day we get just a couple hundred dollars."
She said something like "OH No! I don't want to take credit- I can clarify at the next meeting"
My job done. She gets it.
So now to send her to resources I found as she is geared up to send out some grant applications and I came across another really good local one.
She can run with it or not... I passed the baton on this responsibility long ago. As I told her, I am happy to help her out however if she wants to work together I can do what anyone asks of me. Happy to be of service.
This board is not keen on development of new works and that is fine. But what they do is valuable so I did feel like it was fun to show up and help for a bit. It was worth my time, as it was energizing to me to see the excitement of the kids all show up for the program they are in.
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