2022-12-26 - 6:02 p.m.
DAMN... so close
So that distraction and priority got in the way of the VEC site completion today.
I ALMOST got through the re-activating claim questions but then hit that 6pm wall and got bumped for "system maintenance"
That is the message you get at 6pm sharp.
I was SO DAMN CLOSE
There is a frustrating incongruence.
When filing for unemployment
Now at some point I think I put in what I expect will be the billable rate my company is billing me out for.
NOW even though I own the company. NOW I too have the corporate costs and overhead.
BUT once all done
And that covered part of the business insurance. Adobe license, small part of the start up advertising of web design.
I mean what the hell
NO way I can report income yet.
I don't even really KNOW what the hourly rate is going to be when I pull a DRAW From the LLC officially which I expect will be in March or April at best.
I hope to be profitable and be able to be paid then.
NOW companies that are just starting DO pay employees before profitable. BUT that is when they have ANGEL INVESTORS who can absorb such Risk.
I AM NOT A WEALTHY INVESTOR DAMN VEC
along with your actual Initial own MONEY you are PAYING for start up costs.
SO maybe I should run the numbers and report the wages per hour as the negative. Maybe that will get them to understand my honesty?
I can try that. Run my budget and numbers tomorrow and come up with the ACTUALS of how much it is actually costing me to WORK at this business for EVERY HOUR Of business development and contract review I am doing at this point.
They just still must think there is something I am not reporting when I report INCOME: ZERO
Its like they don't know how start ups actually work in the real world.
Most are folks MOONLIGHTING while have either 1) Other income or 2) Someone else supporting them.
My PASSIVE income of my tenant is such other income that is allowing me to do this work with my own company.
OK enough of VEC venting as I know it is freaking boring.
I am just TRYING as I think it was something like $330 dollars a week eligible based on last income from the job lost?
And I am earning about $199 every two weeks - (based on recent paycheck.) I mean that is 12 hrs - about right.
So $100 a week for my NORMAL 6 hrs on avg. Sure it kicked up as I pick up all I can but then report ACTUALS each week.
So some weeks yes it is ZERO then in unemployment.
But for those weeks I don't have OTHER hours and have not yet started client work ( Which honestly only started to be regular as in work coming in- IN NOV)
EVEN IF I lose the argument that if paid it is not salary- that would STILL NOT change the fact that I meet definition of unemployed and should be paid that different- about $200 a week, from July through October!
That would be a good bit of money which if it comes in I can PAY BACK to the family ( who honestly I now have a tab of about 7K I think? I paid a bit back to one. $10 K if I pay back MY DAD who I think really intended to gift me with the $1000 he sent on a few occasions.
My Dad, a brother, and my working adult kids who don't live with me have all helped out.
And was bitter about that not going to college as she got scholarships and her brothers were all invested in to go to school while she as a capable single woman was expected to stay home to take care of her mother as her mother aged. (Brothers who in her mind, as much as she loved them, were not all the sharpest...not the best students.)
CE la vie..
BUT I am aware that is simply perhaps a dysfunctional family result of BOTH the Fathers in both those families having been alcoholics!
They could not capably provide after a point cause their alcoholism advanced.
This is interesting to me.
AND I am GRATEFUL For the support and help.
BUT yes I don't see any OBLIGATION of my children who are now starting out on their own independent lives to EXPECT them to be supporting me!!
I DO Expect them to learn work ethic and contribute to this household as adults if they are to remain here.
But the question for me is when it is the appropriate time to make that reality a mandate for them.
It has to be a realistic mandate they can meet.
Not disaster and some result that would be harmful.
So that is what I am trying to parse out. When tough love is the thing needed to kick my kids into gear and when it is best to give them space to figure it out.
OK on that note- So I ALMOST got VEC done. FAILED
Tomorrow I will wake and do the VEC FIRST!! YES Just get the ugly task done.
AND THEN I will take a nice walk with Bellatrix to visit the local business, where I have MORE FREE WORK TO DO.
This is the volunteer gig. Benefits the scholarship fund actually that the business association created, funded by items from the silent auction I attended which was marketing for my company. Opportunity to meet other companies and hope land PAID work eventually!
YES tomorrow morning I will do that! Bright and early as expect to wake REFRESHED.
Mini vaca coming up - 2022-12-31
Chilling escaping cause I am just plain tired now. Emotionally drained. Heard again how AWFUL I am from the youngest. - 2022-12-30
So much for family game time. It was typical drama instead. - 2022-12-30
Working a couple hours then the family fun! Found the game to play for this year! ( That is our tradition) - 2022-12-29
Good enough- The simple practical gifts - 2022-12-29