2023-07-03 - 10:55 p.m.
My kids have so much anger at me.
I asked one to help me cause my leg hurt and the kid said No then went off on me " Good your disabled now so maybe you will have some empathy for what it feels like"
I waa astounded at this anger and bitterness and said " I never refused to help you when you adk for help. Don't get mad at me just because when I am in pain I ask for your help just because when you were in pain you did not ask for help "
The kid then went off on me about how I did not care when in high school and they had to walk to school.
I HAD TO WORK
I recall I had to be on time in an office and the school was not even open when I left. I recall I was happy to give kids a ride if they were ready to leave at 7: 30 AM!
But they did have to walk of not ready that early.
I also recall their doctor saying the walking was GOOD for them!
Perhaps that was incorrect, but I was trusting the expert!
They are so angry I am not sorry that they all walked yo school ( as they say "were made to walk to school" by me. )
What the hell
It's not my fault they all had the genetic condition thst is known to be triggered by
They had alot of fucking trauma
Bit the blame game does not help anyone .
There were many factors contributing to their POTS.
But they act like it was most exasperated by my insistence they walk to school in high school.
It was really an insistence I find a job to provide for us all and my insistence that I be on time for my job. That waa back in the days I had to report to an office!!
Maybe that was wrong as the flares were too much. But it's kinda impossible to know for sure, yet the kids report they felt worse after walking so they have to be trusted as to how they felt.
I just wish they would get over the anger and blaming me.