2023-08-14 - 12:13 p.m.
I asked my boyfriend for some input.
Hell if I am going actually have a chance at a functional and healthy relationship I have to let him into my world, even with some visibility into the wounded CPTSD brain of mine at times.
So rather than haul my ass all over town to get to a Best Buy to purchase a new charger ( I do have a full charge on the ONE work only computer)
I tried to be very factual and just tell him what I saw. And ask if he thought it should be of concern.
He said "No - sounds like program updates. Programs run with shedule tasks and the cmd prompt regularly will pop up when those are run in the background."
I have never noticed this before on any of my other computers. BUT I also know I typically Configure for all updates to happen OUTSIDE of work hours. Cause yeah if you don't do so those prompts for system updates pop up. But they typically were with some UI TEXT POP UP msg, and on an internal system where I was not worried about security-
When in my own office- for my company and I am the sole IT support (HA HA)
I did hire the fix it guy who is a great resource. So I have a good resource in my corner. HECK at $75 hr ( what he charged me) I feel like the dude was seriously giving a kind discount for a local new business owner. I mean the guy clearly has been doing this kinda computer geeky dig deep work for 20 years...and the owner of the company he works for far longer... so they were a great resource. It was funny as when I found him I at first had this thought, and hope that MAYBE that geeky fix it dude was in fact the man who is now my boyfriend. Was not a crazy thought at the time-
It is a geek cave.
It is funny how life takes unexpected turns.
BUT then I talked to my boyfriend, chose to TRUST his take
I decided to trust
and move on with work in the comfort of my own home
wihthout the VPN ( as it does not work here with the VPN. The VPN works EVERYWHERE ELSE)
just decided to trust but verify
I also remembered to LEDGER my actual hours worked friday night and this AM for this client. ( YES I WILL BILL THIS TIME for all hrs worked!)
My body needs a day of rest after morning exercise yesterday.
Damn Yoga can kick your butt.
It was just about 20 minutes on my BF's stationary bike; then a yoga stretching class while he rode the bike for the next 30 minutes or more.
IDK how long. He likes these mounatinous biking races that are recorded. So its like you are wathching the view from some dude going down mountains in Iceland, or New Hampshire etc... while riding on your stationary bike if you watch those while working out.
At the same time, in the Geek Cave, on the other MASSIVE TV oriented to my view I watched a dude on the top of some Indian Mountain who had the body and look of a Miliary Drill Sergeant leading in Yoga stretches.
Now come on, does me dude really watch miliary looking dudes when he ventures to try yoga?
He apologized as he set it up for me that it was not beginner- and was very demanding and I was no where in shape for it. I think he overestimated me.
He said he does the beginner classes... LOL
Man I swear it did not seem that hard BUT
AND needed a serious NAP before work in the mid afternoon
AND when got up my legs were tight and felt like I just ran a very long hard run that morning.
I am basically completely out of shape. 10 weeks rest from serious exercise will do that.
So I was glad I called to talk to him, and he was so calming and affirming and let me know it is of course ok for me to have those feelings when triggered...etc...
MAYBE A swim later today would be good. I could do that surely. Just a bit not overdoing it- but getting nice swim with strech in. I have to be careful not to overdo it with the shoulder as that was what was hurting when I swam too hard.
I tend to do any exercise too hard after a break.
Getting rides and calling a Lyft until ramp back up.
OK BACK TO WORK. Now going to log into the 2nd client! I felt neglected the other last week so wanted to prioritze them first.