2023-10-27 - 7:57 p.m.
My fourth child is a writer.
And frankly, reading their work is as heartbreaking.
Maybe it is because I have not yet read their work as much. It is raw. It is new to me. It is shocking,
even though I was there.
I fled the horrors of it
and there were moments
it is the horrors they have had to process
So those are in the writing
I should have not been surprised by this, yet I was so excited to read good fiction and somehow expected fun fanciful stories. I expected fantasy, as that was what in past when younger they has written much of. Tales inspired by Harry Potter, and what was that fantasy story so popular in the 2000s inspired by the greek gods?? ... which was made into a very BAD movie... well you know what I mean....
The last work I read of this writer offspring of mine was fantasy fiction!
I should know by now that when bored at work DO NOT LOOK FOR THE WRITING OF MY kids. There was too much trauma and I should KnOW by now they process it in their work. They had to make it THROUGH childhood to then be able to look back and process.
Yet it feels like such a fragile transition
I fear for their lives
Glad no one is coming to visit this nursing home tonight.
Visiting hours end at 8 technically.
I usually lock the door at 8:30 pm.
I am going to lock it now.
Because I can't stop the tears,
And I can sit in this peaceful quiet