2019-09-18 - 1:00 p.m.
Oh my he is so handsome and seemed so nice....
And I kinda felt this chemistry when I randomly met the guy who I already know some things about because when I walk my dog I see what goes in the neighbor's recycle bins and trash...
So there were some surprises when had a nice chat with this fellow as walked dog one morn and he was waiting for uber.
I noted on plates on car combination of letters that include govt. Thought meant one the many govt employees.
Saw some tactical ballistic books tossed out. And hints of military....
as I walk around my neighborhood
Why the hell around here is the trash from whom serm like the single men , and their swag....bumper stickers, decor, cars etc.... ALL just say
Upper Class Republican that most likely voted for Trump and is most likely a narcissist ?
( I saw some study said BMWs are driven by narcissists and I found that hilarious )
So it was absolutely lovely one Sun morn a few weeks ago to hear an opera singer practicing!! It gave me such joy to hear her. I said hello to that lady a week later and just enjoyed observing she and her two small boys work on putting scarecrows in their flower bed this morn.
I so enjoyed one night the beauty of random guy who enjoys woodwork as he was in flow one night in his basement and I just caught the image of his intent concentration cutting the wood with a table or miter saw , through the curtainless window.
Walking the neighborhood is just fun. I feel like I should get to know the lady I see cleaning up her kitchen like clockwork at dusk, the same time I love to walk Bellatrix to see the sunset.
So after observing , and lamenting to self the obvious military service, govt work and lack of seemingly single men around her I think I could enjoy getting to know without cringing at some of their beliefs
I know I am making assumptions here
Now it's not that I dont respect life of service in govt capacity for good of other. I DO. I CONSIDERED a job recently in such.
I question its CREDIBILITY
So there is this weird thing I grapple with.
I ADMIRE thise who serve for our freedom and greater good and well being of all
But feel like some have been duped (possibly all?)
Yet still find some of the best people I know
Have been or are military.
So I find this attraction to those in military who are convicted about their commitment to serve believing it is honorable and of the highest calling.
Anyway point being I had In my mind a characatire of who I thought would be the Marine that I thought worked for govt in some capacity and just expected to be the kinda classic buff military guy
So I had expected a single mid life batchelor who is the buff, grown frat boy with federal or state govt. military or law enforcement job. With a dog, a motorcycle, and knows good beer, that voted for or Trump, to be in that particular house that was screaming batchelor to me. Assuming one single by choice who lets women into his world to meet his needs but not actually to have true emotional intimacy with.There are too many of those kinda guys here...Oh there are batchelor signs....perfectly manicured lawns, quiet all the time, nothing askew ever, never much trash, no toys or sports equipment or things kids would have...no mom minivan...
I literally thought the day I passed the recycling bin with books on ballistics and tactical planning for combat....
"Cant I just come across one person's recycle bin with old poetry mags or literary mags they are leaving out??"
So assumed I would not be at all interested in any man could meet here.
Guy I randomly met was a Marine. That guess was accurate.
But has been a teacher for last 15 to 20ish years.
That was not what I expected.
And he was warm. And charming, and had this just beautiful energy....I mean, it felt like joy about him.
Just thrown by how meeting him seemed just so not what I expected.
And the license plate did have a message I just didn't get it...
They were an intended message
"Go vote "
Yes! This man restored my optimism.