2021-12-18 - 1:05 p.m.
Happy to have found a good way to be productive while also catching up on the crazy soap opera show that pays my son's bills.
I cleaned all the bathrooms while watching a couple epidodes today. I have a couple good movies out from the library that I forgot about and discovered while looking at what video games my teens have in the middle of the night during last minute e-bay shopping a couple of nights ago.
The writing of the show is so terrible, yet funny.
One awful line used in all the writer's work "We're not doing this again, are we?"
Not a good way to listen to your fam..
Try saying that to someone and see if they are going to go "OH OK I will let it drop" whenever you try to talk to them about something.
End of critique...lol
Its campy telanova and not meant to be good. It is fun however; and it is paying the bills.
Now the challenge for my son is his agents don't want casting agents to be aware of that work when he walks in the room! LOL
My oldest is in Europe on a vacation! Glad they were able to go visit their partner who is in an MFA program there doing things like visiting Gothic castles!
I am pleased I got all the bathrooms ( four- three full and one parlor) cleaned this morning while watching the show. One more episode left in my binge and I will be caught up. Thing is that worked while cleaning bathrooms cause in one space
My teens mantra is "Don't touch my stuff"
I respond that there is a place set up FOR EVERYTHING Coat racks, shoe racks. dishwasher... etc..
The resistance is ridiculous but its a losing battle for me. It deflates my energy as they don't help and are oppositionally defiant about maintaining any semblance of order in the home and I can't for the life of me figure out WHY.
SURE we are ALL ADHD
But being organized makes it EASIER to navigate life with that! SO I just don't get it-
I let it go when don't have energy to be the enforcer. But then when have energy I do clean the heck out of everything I can ( in spurts- sometimes big and sometimes a little, one job at a time.)
OH YEAH now that I keep writing I realize I DO KNOW where it comes from. Patterns of learned behavior of me being disresepected but I think the thing that baffles me is that years of living elsewhere and NOT AROUND That behavior
HOW is IT SO HARD TO STOP CYCLES OF ABusE IN FAMILiES???
Its so disappointing to me.
Sometimes I think maybe I was selfish in NOT marrying a man I didnt love who did love me AND MY KIDS
or I should say who I LOVED but was not physically attracted to. Just never had chemistry.
MAYBE there is some reason and merit in those who choose those kind of agreements/marriage more as a transaction of choice in life.
Its so disappointing to me.
A clean, orderly space filled with people who are HAPPY TO SEE ME and NICE TO ME.
They get lonely. Pre Covid my kids did come with me and volunteered basically- they would play games and just sit and chat. On occassion one of them would sing or read their poetry in the cafe at the snack time. It was fun and apprechiated! They did this when young and grew up coming there.
There are residents that still ask about them. One of mine played lots of Rummycube
I reminded her as she was filling out college applications that can be written down as her volunteer work. She was like "Oh yeah" I mean they were there so often just hanging it didn't seem like volunteer work! Just part of the places they are in their normal routine- part of their lives really. I am glad I gave my kids that opportunity and it is in fact a #1 reason I kept that job all these years. I KNOW that it would offer a viable job option for any of them at any time. The kitchen manager used to BEG me to get any of them to come work for him!! I finally told him of their POTS and not being well enough to navigate work at this time.
I also inquired of the kitchen staff to find out how NICE the folks are that work there. There are some older folks and younger and I spoke with two really nice young adults there ( one late teens, one older in young 20s) and know if my kids ever wanted to work there the folks in the kitchen are nice.
Just good to know that option is always there if they wanted it.
So plan now is to decorate tomorrow after church. That was the plan LAST Sunday and I did not get it done. But tomorrow for sure will!
Their Dad objected to the vaccine--- listened to the religious who somehow did not quite get it that the vaccine really protect youth in communities that don't talk about sex and don't provide sex education from RAPE and incest mores than any date rape etc.. CAUSE it is those repressive communities where no one talks of sex that that kinda of crazy dysfunction occurs MORESO Than communities where it is perfectly acceptable to have a sex life and use protection etc..
My teens actually said this to me when I brought then to a Dr. for a needed menaccocil vaccine for school and I thought of the Gardisil vac and then my 19 yr old got the first dose of it. It took me a while to understand what they were saying. They kept saying "Gardisil only needs to be given to kids because of incest"
They really said it is needed most in the very communities where the adults act like it is unnecessary.
Incest also happens in INSULAR FAMILIES WHO DO NOT LET THEIR MEMBERS SOCIALIZE WITH THE WORLD or in RELIGIOUS communities that are also insular.
YEAH- so I made donations and am giving my parents and family all a card with the alternative gift of a donation to help those in Haiti for Christmas gifts. I will also send each a book from a banned book list. Fairfax County parents encouraging the burning of this book motivated me for that idea.
Not sure who to give Gender Queer to as my teens were not interested in it. I might actually send it to my Dad to be honest. He might find it interesting and learn from it. He is pretty open minded and I think will apprechiate it. I read it and it was pretty good. The funny thing is it is about someone AESEXUAL who does not WANT To have sex at all! They tried and it did nothing for them so not sure why the conservatives find THAT so very offensive! (LOL)
https://app.etapestry.com/cart/CommunityCoalitionforHaiti_1/default/index.phpThat was on this AM agenda and for some reason I could not find my address book... LOL Life with ADHD...
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