2022-09-06 - 3:33 p.m.
OMG This is ADHD One's brain sees something important that feels like it just HAS to be done NOW and throws out the TO DO list.
I guess it is not all that bad.
So there was today's TO DO of what I intended to get done;
3:30 PM Report
I mean what the hell. I should not be lowering my expectation just because nothing stuck yet. If I AM the right person they will hire me and give me my worth in the market.
Hell if only when the old CEO asked "do you want full time?" I had just said "YES" maybe then he would not have canned me?
I realize he said that and I was like "No, I really want to start my company to be able to work part time."
That was HONEST and TRUE but OF COURSE if I knew he was to can me I would have said YES and taken full time with that company that was so chill to work for.
He seemed to then have the ego kick in I swear. I feel like he felt badly , maybe rejected.. HA HA
OK I really said I was going to let it go... I just never got any answers from him as to why he let me go. He never did call be back when I tried to reach him.
I don't have to be everyone's cup of tea BUT I DO have to either find clients who are happy with the services I can offer them OR find a job QUICKLY.
I mean that is a band aid. That will help me keep the mortgage payment paid- that plus the part time receptionist work ( Well almost...that is only if I am to continue picking up extra hours. But they are not always available!) Even with the reception work it will be tight to just have that income to cover mortgage alone! But that is ALL it will cover truth be told.
I STILL need to land work soon!!
Northern VA is just a freaking expensive place to live.
I think I realized I lowballed my own salary expectation when applied for the one job in DC. 135 people already applied for that one so I felt like I had to go a bit lower than they posted to even get my application looked at for that particular job!
BUT then- I thought "That was just dumb! I really don't want to go to DC unless I get more" To hell with trying to be competitive in a market by offering CHEAPER service. HELL NO that is not the brand I want! I want the brand of QUALTITY SERVICE one is willing to pay more for. I want to be the PREMIUM provider !
So I just had to rectify that mistake by applying for another role asking for the salary I want AND finding one CLOSE To home as well- so it is high salary and low commute if I do have to go on site! I found a posting literally down the road from my last job. That would be SWEET! (I could even bike there when up to it! I only biked to the last job twice in the time I worked there.)
I swear if my kid gets in a college in NY *( one is applying to one) I think there are incentives to MOVE businesses to NY which might make it make SENSE for me to do just that.
I could actually rent out MOST Of this house but keep my company office here and live MUCH cheaper. Hell if I get a good basement tenant and the two kids still here DO get into colleges to start in a year in NY ( Both say they are applying to NY colleges. One was working on an application for a Boston school today which was great to hear so one at least is making progress on working toward goals.)
Well I will wait and see and hang on this year at least here. But honestly once they land where they are going to be-
NO I would literally plan on ( if I could afford to) KEEPING this house however shifting it to a complete business venture at this point in life.
I would keep MY ONE BEDROOM as my corporate headquarters. I would make the other upstairs bedroom a rental-
So someone could rent that upstairs bedroom which has its own bathroom and have use of the living areas which are shared spaces.
Heck I could rent that 2nd bedroom and the rent from renting the basement and that one room would cover the mortgage. I would still have the other household expenses
AND I would RENT a space to live in upstate NY. YUP Land some work THERE. Either a full time gig or enough clients both in NY and here ( hell my clients can be ANYWHERE) and in time build up enough clients and income to be able to buy a place up there.
This could be the business venture.
Not an unrealistic vision. Heck I think my kids would be best if they can live ON campus and gain independence. BUT they DO have chronic illness and do have unique medical needs and it is not the worst thing in the world to support one's kids through college. I mean I call BS on enabling. If they do end up in the same region and both school are close enough-it would save EVERYONE money if we all rented and lived together.
The reason I say this is if they get into NY Schools and for some reason, I have not landed a job yet- well THEN There is the possibility of finding a full-time job in the region they are going to be in school to make that feasible.
In other words quality of life would be increased if we just move.
As I write- the phone rang and it was a ZOOM phone call. Knew not to be afraid of that as it indicated someone calling from an office- showed a CA location.
Turns out it was a recruiter who submitted my resume for a role a few weeks back. I have applied to so many jobs I forget details by the time I get a call back! HOWEVER If I recall correctly this is one of those which went in at a very high rate per hour. It was the stretch I thought- the reach job.
That sector, in California, also happens to pay top tier. They also are comfortable with fully remote. Working primarily pacific time works for me.
Movement of any sort is good!
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